A couple of things that happened in my recent past left me stirred. A montage of unruly images kept hurling before my eyes as if to haunt me or assassinate my existence with the horrific realities. I was scared and I was freaked out. None of them I wanted to talk to spoke to me at that time. I was left alone in a dungeon of dark thoughts. I was perplexed with my condition. I wanted to run away and cry my heart out.
Where else would I go? To my friend. . ‘The Sea.’
I sat in my solitude looking at the sea with tears in my eyes. I concentrated on the silence. From within this silence the waves of the sea started speaking to me. We had a long conversation and here is the gist of those conversations;
Sea (s) and Me [m]
S: what are you doing in my shore crying and alone?
M: I am not sure, I am just confused and worried
S: about what? What are you worried about?
M: the things that have happened to me in the recent past; I don’t know what to make out of them?
S: what do you want to make out of those incidents?
M: I am not sure! I just don’t know what I want to make out of those things!
S: why are you upset then? What is it that you want?
M: I don’t want anything! Having al that I have is making me un happy
S: if you don’t want anything in reality, then you would be laughing with joy .. . it is because you want something that you are actually unhappy!
M: is it wrong to have desires?
S: no . . it is not bad to have desires . . . .but let the desires be desires and reality be reality
M: what is the reality?
S: ok! Let me explain! Do you see how all these people have arrived at my shore in the evening?
M: yes . . . . They want to view the sunset!
S: well it is their desire that they want to experience the beauty of sunset, the cascading interplay of colors and to feel the bliss and warmth of that sunset
M: yes
S: but their desire is devoid of the truth that the sun is never going to set . . . and my waters and the sky are never going to turn red.
Its just an illusion planed by nature
M: but if it gives them happiness. It is good!
S: yes, but it is momentary happiness. If they continue to feel the same bliss from me in the darkness of the night, in the shuddering wind storms and during high tide also, then theis desires are a worthy complement to my existence.
M: what are you trying to say?
S: if people desire your company only to fulfill their emptiness and do not stand by you when you are empty; they actually are encouraging you to feel a delusional bliss.
Remember that you and I are the same. Our life is nothing but a collection of waves sometimes high tide and sometimes low. We shimmer in the presence of brightness and turn melancholic during darkness. We don’t live for people who want to see a sunset and forget the reality behind it. We both share unknown depths that house the scariest abyss and the most precious of pearls. We are wavy on the outside but tormented from within. Both of us are unaware why we exist and what is our purpose. Both of us bleed in pain and converse in silence. Both of us are here to live till destiny pushes us away. Both of us are one.. Me and you. . .
Where else would I go? To my friend. . ‘The Sea.’
I sat in my solitude looking at the sea with tears in my eyes. I concentrated on the silence. From within this silence the waves of the sea started speaking to me. We had a long conversation and here is the gist of those conversations;
Sea (s) and Me [m]
S: what are you doing in my shore crying and alone?
M: I am not sure, I am just confused and worried
S: about what? What are you worried about?
M: the things that have happened to me in the recent past; I don’t know what to make out of them?
S: what do you want to make out of those incidents?
M: I am not sure! I just don’t know what I want to make out of those things!
S: why are you upset then? What is it that you want?
M: I don’t want anything! Having al that I have is making me un happy
S: if you don’t want anything in reality, then you would be laughing with joy .. . it is because you want something that you are actually unhappy!
M: is it wrong to have desires?
S: no . . it is not bad to have desires . . . .but let the desires be desires and reality be reality
M: what is the reality?
S: ok! Let me explain! Do you see how all these people have arrived at my shore in the evening?
M: yes . . . . They want to view the sunset!
S: well it is their desire that they want to experience the beauty of sunset, the cascading interplay of colors and to feel the bliss and warmth of that sunset
M: yes
S: but their desire is devoid of the truth that the sun is never going to set . . . and my waters and the sky are never going to turn red.
Its just an illusion planed by nature
M: but if it gives them happiness. It is good!
S: yes, but it is momentary happiness. If they continue to feel the same bliss from me in the darkness of the night, in the shuddering wind storms and during high tide also, then theis desires are a worthy complement to my existence.
M: what are you trying to say?
S: if people desire your company only to fulfill their emptiness and do not stand by you when you are empty; they actually are encouraging you to feel a delusional bliss.
Remember that you and I are the same. Our life is nothing but a collection of waves sometimes high tide and sometimes low. We shimmer in the presence of brightness and turn melancholic during darkness. We don’t live for people who want to see a sunset and forget the reality behind it. We both share unknown depths that house the scariest abyss and the most precious of pearls. We are wavy on the outside but tormented from within. Both of us are unaware why we exist and what is our purpose. Both of us bleed in pain and converse in silence. Both of us are here to live till destiny pushes us away. Both of us are one.. Me and you. . .
1 comment:
i got 2 read smile n conversations with the sea.. liked it.. honestly a part of me liked it.. the part that appreciates wrthing n other good stuffs that are flung by karthik into the web.. the world wide web.. but my hands belong to my physical side.. a side thats having practicality as an inner wear first n then a vest.. i tried to write bt couldnt.. often being reminded that this is not for which im here now.. dats y sometimes u wil nt find me gving a feedback... bt it does nt mean anything br the fact that i hav read n smiled n appreciated u expressions bt my hands are bound...
ur conversation was good.. cudnt figure y U of all da ppl wud need to have such queries.. bt i guess we all r human n that sometimes even the mightest of trees need a bucket of water when summer is showing its wrath..
ur poem on smile was good.. the redunduncy was non existent.. ur particular way of writhing "A painter wrote his work n a poet drew his poem" was too good.. n with this peom u have weaved it out well...
My challenge.. wrong y call it a challenge.. ?? a suggestion.. having tried this form of expressing in writhing.. how about u try working out a different way of writhing.. don ask me for ideas.. i don have any.. bt i beleive u can pull it off.. its upto u.. u can try it.. u can stick to this way.. what matters is what matters to u.. exprssing or the form of expressing.. probabaly the former for now n latter for latter time or vice versa.. bt ur last two were good.
yes u have scribbled n i have broken my head.. is the word scribble a good word to use ? id say yes.. y nt.. its purrfectly ok to use the word scribble as a name for expressing.. im afraid i don or i don wanna have it in me to ponder over so much.. in fact it amuses me when my X speaks abt her life in comparison to practically anything.. whilted flowers or sunrises or sun sets or skies or animals.. iam not ridiculing her bt its nt necessary to be so expressive at all times.. u can stick to normal sentneces at times.. anyways its her life..
another incident that i funy very interesting thought it probabaly was nt for the ppl involved was:
"Few years ago shahid kapoor n kareena had jus started goin out when rumors of fardeen khan playing the fool with kareena reached shahids years.. he apparently went to fardeen's house n threatend him. Fardeen mite had deserved it.. maybe he didnt.. its jus filmy gossip.. maybe it was for real.. but farden's reply to the entire incident in a magazine was YES HE(SHAHID) DID COME OVER AMD THREATEN ME.. ALL I DID WAS LAUGH IT OFF.. THEY ARE KIDS.. N ARE BOUND TO TAKE THINGS TO THEIR HEADS" no matter the circumstances in which he said thes word bt i took it for the rite way.. wen one reaches a certain machurity one doesnt count any body elses anger as a emotion or for that matter as a arrow targetted at him.. I do the same now.. n its so amusing to see, hear n find people using it for trival matters.. another comment passd to me by boss it that she think iam nt aggreessive.. im way too happy at my job.. too comfy to move.. to dream.. to dare.. i hav given my reasons to her which i mite post later.. bt for now my arugement in reply to it on this forum is.. u never knw how much u'd lov or hate ur next job or promotion.. mayb a higher post n better pay may just snatch the calmness u've had in the previous post with lesser money... bt dat does nt reason to stagnent one self.. bt for now.. iam jus abt happy..
I also thank any reader who had read this much.. as well for tryin to understand my lingo.. as well as my MIS Spelt words...
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