Saturday, February 10, 2007

I HATE IT WHEN I AM LOOKED AT LIKE AN OUTSIDER!


Well I am writing this post today with utter fury! I cannot understand why the world has to be the way it is now? Why cant people just bother about their lives and live happily?

I was going to attend a concert one day and in my usual way I decided to wear a Panche and Kurta and go. It is the attire that I am most comfortable in and the attire that I mostly feel at home in. Well, after the concert I thought I will go and meet a few friends for practice and in the meanwhile I received a message that I need to go to college to collect a few important supplements. I decided to leave from the venue in the same attire and I went to college and collected the material. I was annoyed how everybody gave you a look for being in that attire! Well I think it is totally unfair that people should go crazy when they look at an Indian dressed like an Indian! It makes no sense!

I was annoyed and irritated too. If I were to dress up like a hip-hop dancer and go to college with all my funny attire I am sure I would have received much appreciation! It is so demeaning that I have to think twice before I can follow my culture and my roots. I am a person without any two sides. I am an open book and I have only one face! I am what I am where ever I am. Just because a group of people are uncomfortable with my traditionalism I cannot change myself and behave like a hippy! I am proud of my tradition and I will carry it with me.

I don’t care about what other people have to say. I don’t have any respect for people who cannot live by their culture and respect their traditions. If you cannot respect your own tradition, you are actually showing disrespect to your own upbringing! I don’t have to go and drink in a party to be ‘cool’, I don’t have to wear branded stuff to look ‘hot’, and I don’t have to put up an accent to feel special! I have nothing against people who do, it’s their life! Similarly it s my life and they should let me be the way I am!

I want to be what I am and I am very proud of what I am. If people consider me old fashioned or boring they have all their freedom to think so! I have better things to worry about! There are so many compositions I haven’t learnt yet, so many books of Vivekananda that I haven’t read yet, so many Sanskrit plays that I haven’t heard of yet and so many philosophers of whom I haven’t heard yet! Well I need to learn about my culture and my country before I can spend time knowing about other stuff. Otherwise I will be like one of those wineglass models who appear in Page3 of commercial magazines, who even smile like they have to smile for somebody else, so plastic and so clichéd! So far from originality, reality!

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